don't call me crazy

Can't sleep, Silent breathing. 

I can still feel you next to me.

I feel like an old woman with a terrible

memory and a horrible back ache.

I hate it that I love you so much.

Doyoueverknowthat?

Just shut your eyes and feel the chemicals collide

on the night you save my life.

I think I finally got it right with you.

My heart is breaking, my hands are shaking.

my brain's stop working when you're here.

Unbelievably weird?

Little change in the heart, because you've

been hiding for days.

I know it's not easy for you.

Get up and go.

Don't look back and go.

 

i used to be a love drunk.

nanana

The Voice Within

On sat I didn't go for Sabrina's party last minute because mummy 

was gonna be alone since dad was going to penang.

Stayed in watched Tv the whole day.

At 7 Ian cooked for me a really dry maggie mee while I watch HSM 3(:

It's so nice, the movie I mean. ;)

I was having a terrible Headache yesterday, couldn't sleep at all

until 3 when I got up and went to the parents room 

like a little girl carry a little teddy bear sleeping in between those two.

After awhile I fell terribly sick and rush into the toilet and puke.

Ergh had some panadol later and went into my room and sleep instead

since it was freezing cold in my parent's room.

A few minutes later I went rushing into my toilet and puke again.

Ugh! Terrible,terrible,terrible and worse of all I was having cramps!

Anyway I fell asleep after I washed up and everything like finally.

Woke up and 10 and went downstairs and slept again.

I practically slept the whole day and read a bit of Archies(:

Love love love 'em.

Dinner is gonna be ready soon so I betta go set

up the table now, have a nice day!

:) ♥

change your mind

I've learn to let go of the someone whom I loved so much.

I've went through so much pain that I didn't want to deal with.

I wanted to ignore everything, ignore what was happening.

I didn't want to accept the fact you're gone, he's gone.

There's no more turning back, no more regrets, 

no more teary eye nights, no more drench pillows.

Those scars are not healing but it will soon, i know it will.

I still feel you next to me.

I've been a total mess this whole year and now I'm picking myself up.

I met a couple of heartbreaks.

but I got a little hope that today I can face my fears.

Not looking back and getting up and go.

I'm not holding on anymore to this pain.

i've watched new moon on thursday(:

stayed over in Ashley's house on wednesday.

Went there at 10 at night nearly 11 I think.

We went to the balcony to chat for an hour or so.

Watched some shows after that and went to bed at 2.

Woke up at 10, ate breakfast, got dressed and went to

Tropicana for New Moon.

Was 15 minutes late.

The show was good actually very good.

Edward & Jacob? Hot but not really that hot.

Subway for lunch, Bad Ass Coffee for drinks?

AHAHA! :) CUTE NAME.

Went back to the apartment and played

monopoly on the deck, so windy and nice.

& then went swimming after that.

Fried rice for dinner, it was good(:

& watched 4 Christmas, it was weird but nice.

Laughed like mad until I had bad tummy aches

and daddy picked me up at 11.

Did really nothing much today.

I have crazy eye bags and red swollen eyes now.

Reading  The Time Traveler's Wife now.

It's good and finish reading 

Angus, Thongs, & Perfect Snogging.

Tomorrow? at 5 will be going over to Sabrina's and

then we head off to USJ 5 for some party.

She's driving! :) can't wait.

Sayf & Lyn are going to be there too.

Can't wait to see all three of them(: 

Goodnight ♥ 

Get up and Dance

Hello Hello, (:

I shall upload photos from the Bell's Birthday sleepover, 

the sleepover in my house, and then Sayf's house. (:

 now just waiting for Ash to go find her cable. 

I haven't watch New Moon yet, thinking of watching it this thursday.

Was supposed to go tomorrow with Walker's but she and I are both busy now.

Mom's friend from London is back and she hasn't seen her in like 30 years?

I don't know, (: can't remember or I just couldn't understand what she was saying.

I told Ash that would happen to us next time!(: hahahaha, hopefully not.

Anyway meeting that lady whom I just found out is somewhat related to us?

Through marriage only(: I think. 

This family thing is just plain confusing.

The holidays are going good, getting more sleep now.

I've finally get to sleep after my only 3 hour sleep from friday.

& after sleeping for 13 hours I still felt sleepy on sunday afternoon.

I don't take naps, not bothered too.

Been reading and studying a lot too(: I'm like a bookworm.

Oh, i had the best dinner tonight well kinda.

Mom made Beef Steak, Mash potatoes, and Butter Collie flower and Carrots.

It's was so good but the beef steak was kinda hard.

Other than that it was good(: Mom's mash potatoes are still the best of the best.

 

Anyway I'm really rather lazy now so go look at the really overdue pictures now(:

Bell's Birthday lunch(:

The Cookie is so good(:

Bell's Cake

Ashley's Grandma's cake.

Being weird as always.

I attack this half the time

Her look a like balloon(: heehee.

& ours.

& Mine! (:

They let go all the balloons by the pool side, it was so pretty. 

Mine and Ashley's, we were reluctant to let it go.

But the coolest thing was it flew away together! :) 

After a long, fun, exhausting day

this little girl gave me hugs, she's so adorable. 

Oh yeah, this is the only pics I'm loading from the sleepover in my house,

too lazy to upload the others. Sorry! :) 

Oh yeah Ash, I stole some of this because Bell's looked so adorable and gorgeous(:

So pretty, right?

In Sayf's house when no one at all was in except for us three.

We were bored to death and decided to camwhore with the tree.

& started reading the writings on her Cabinet.

SHE IS HUGE.

STILL WAITING, PATIENTLY.(: 

When she finally came home we went to the park and Amy started cycling.

& we started throwing the basket ball at her.

It was hilarious, but mean(: hahaha.

We did facial mask.

the end.

ok goodnight ♥

tonight is gonna be the night

I've been absolutely lazy to update and still am.

I'm dead tired and exhausted but I'll just do a quicky post.

So, i stayed over with americans in Sayf's house yesterday.

Americans pick me up and went there around 3 and she wasn't in 

so we just chilled alone in the house without anyone.

It was cool but kinda freaky.

Round 4 or 5 i don't know, she freaked out because she couldn't find us.

We all hid in the toilet.

Haah! it was funny to see her face! (: So, we did a quick what's up

and went to the park to play futsal.

Been ages since I played.(:

& fooled around in the kiddy park, heehee so fun.

went back home around 6 and watch snippits of some video.

IT WAS SO FUNNY!

and then we had dinner which was so so so awesome!

showered after that and had relaxing time and talk talk talk

as usual, you know how girls are? we talk nonstop.

ALL the nonsense and some pretty funny.

went downstairs at 4ish and had milo and chilled in the living room till 5 and

then went up and went to bed,

Woke up at like 8 and Americans left at 11 after breakfast.

I got showered and started messing around with Sayf and Bob.(:

Reuel Ng's are so cuteeeeeeeee.

We talked more and went down for lunch at 2ish for Pan Mee.

It was good(: and then at 4 dad picked me up.

and now I'm home dying for sleep :( my eyes

are so so so dry it hurts.

oh,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15th KYELI! 

♥♥♥

&hearts you lots babeeeeeeee,(:

ok goodnight.

& I want to fall in love with you

Very much lack of updates, I know(:but I can't be bothered.

Hello!

So the whole of last week was kinda hectic.

On friday I went over to the Walker's before going for Award's Night at night

but before that we were setting up Bell's birhtday party hall room.

It was so nice(:

We did some icing cookies.

& around 5 we rush in and out of the shower and getting ready

since we were kinda late(: and got ready all by 7ish and went of the for the night.

It was so boring! 

half the time I didn't pay attention and then Ash and I went out

half way for food(: and got ourself some mickey dees.

We sneak em' into the auditorium(: teehee.

A few minutes later we had to leave, SAVE BY UNCLE JOEY! :D

We got home around 10 and did so many stuff that I can't even remember!

All I know we went to bed around 2-3 and got up at 9 and help around

and then got ready by 12 and went down to *work* it was so tiring.

I tell you these,

Walker-Martinez Family is HUGE!

I was so tired and exhausted by the end of the day from running around

like some mad woman but it was fun! :D

Mhmm(:

and then on Sunday we went for late mass in CDM and went home

for lunch and then at 3 we went to Parade to get some stuff,

Bought myself a new dress too(: It's gorgeous pink! :D 

Mummy bought too(: it was long and it's for christmas.

rushed off to AMCORP to get some stuff and 

then to the Walker's again to pick Americans back to my house(:

They stayed over while Ian for Danielle's party.

Ash stayed two days and just left today(: 

Got drag to school because of her, well somewhat(: heeehee.

Melacca Trip got cancelled since we didn't

do our book reports.

Ash and I did ours on mon since it was really overdue.

instead we went for class lunch in SAPRINOS 

It was pretty good(:

Got back to school around 12 nearly one and did some camp thingy.

Got home at 4.

& now here I am waiting for Piano class.

I'm just too lazy.

♥♥♥

RIP.

RIP. Kitty, I'm missing you more and more 

everyday.

This baby has been with us for more than 7 years and two-three years ago

he had cancer but he was a strong cat and survived through the whole

operations and everything.

on  5.10.09 the little baby passed away from

internal bleeding and a very very very bad diarhea.

He didn't even reached the freaking vet and he already went up to heaven.

Sighs.

I miss him so much, you have no idea how adorable he is!

He and Angel got along so well

and now Angel has been looking for him.

i miss my baby so much! D':